猪胖故猪在

now i am in Berlin. the Berlin film festival began at 9th Feb.2006. the Berlin film palace located in the Marlene Dietrich Square.

Marlene Dietrich  is my star.

the weather is bad, but German, good.

"When i see these beautiful women with curvaceous figures, rosy lips and sparkling eyes, when i see these young men, fiery as young stallions, when i see our table sagging under all this abundance, then i'm inspired to say something about life."

"I see a  light. Now it is extinguished. It is dark. I hear sweet words of love. No, I cannot repeat them. My sense of decency forbids it. I think I see...I ...Now it is beautiful....who can talk about decency at such a moment? Oh, it's stimulating. A young man. He rides at full gallop. It is beautiful! Nature itself."

as a Chinese, during the Spring Festival, i went to Yong He Temple to pray for the new year.

to pray for what?  maybe peaceful life, maybe peaceful death. always good forturn.

i love the beautiful Buddha statue in Yong He Temple.

i know she loves me.

and i will always be very grateful to life, to other people.

"Buddha comes from Sanskrit which stands for consciousness . to become a buddha yourself,  you have to gain your own consciousness and help others gain theirs."

It's very cold today. I catch very severe cold.

can not help thinking about that:

there are only two kinds of show on the TV of  CHINA. one is commercial AD, the other, AD of CCP.

had a nightmare last night.

a dream so sad, so vividly sad.

i know it's all reality. it's not a dream. it'strue.

even in my dream, i did not show out my weakness.

I want love, but it's impossible
A woman like me, so irresponsible
A woman like me is dead in places
Other women feel liberated
I can't love, shot full of holes
Don't feel nothing, I just feel cold
Don't feel nothing, just old scars
Toughening up around my heart
(But) I want love, just a different kind
I want love, won't break me down
Won't brick me up, won't fence me in
I want a love that don't mean a thing
That's the love I want, I want love
I want love on my own terms
After everything I've ever learned
Me, I carry too much baggage
Oh man I've seen so much traffic
(But) I want love, just a different kind
I want love, won't break me down

the biggest holiday  in China is approaching,

but fattie and piggie have no mood, no sense, no wish for celebrating at all.

they work everyday, like a fool.

but quite happy.

piggie wants to draw a comic series one day ,  called  《fattie and piggie》.

fattie is a happy ,a little dull girl, but very very smart, like an engineer. she is more smart than piggie. and piggie, very sensitive, a little cynical, an intellectual inside,  that means, looks intellegent,  even wise,but very stupid when coping with  real life.

they are all very kind, and funny.

i will write the cartoon book when i "retired" from SINA.

Call me irresponsible
Call me unreliable
Throw in undependable too

Do my foolish alibis bore you
Well I'm not too clever?
I just adore you

Call me unpredictable
Tell me I'm impractical
Rainbows I'm inclined to pursue

Call me irresponsible
Yes I'm unreliable
But it's undeniably true:
I'm irresponsibly mad for you

so many good girls in SINA. yesterday, when we had lunch, we talked about the exciting topic.

they are good looking, good-tempered, good-hearted and good educated....they are almost good in everthing .

how lucky to work with those girls. they are so nice.

and good men? we never dream of that.

we are educated to be accostomed  to the disappointment men gave us.

5C: Charm、Courtesy、Character、Commitment、Community.

is that me?

but i am quite sure, that finally, i grow older, and i grow better.

i give you all the things i have,

but myself.

i do the right thing,

but you do things right.

hummm

he is KING KONG.

a sad movie.

Peter Jackson is good.